It was a euphoric moment when I heard about my son’s acceptance to Stanford University. I pictured him attending college in one of the best universities in the world. His acceptance proved that all his hard work in high school eventually paid off.
But what I didn’t realize then was how far away California is from Texas. That I would miss him like crazy once he moves there. I was glad Stanford started their school year much later than the rest of the country. When everyone’s sons and daughters were already starting college in August, we were fortunate to enjoy his company until mid-September.
We flew to California a few days before the official move-in date (September 20). I was dreading for this day to come and when it finally did, I was filled with bittersweet emotions. When I gave him a hug and a kiss at the end of the day, I cried thinking he won’t be in his room each night when I go back to Texas. He won’t be there in the morning to update me about current political events. He won’t be there to help me walk our dog. I won’t have anyone to go to my favorite sushi restaurant randomly. I will miss seeing him and talking to him over a cup of tea everyday about anything and everything.
As much as it breaks my heart to let go, I am blessed with the peace of mind knowing that he is at a university that is known to take care of their students. I need to take a leap of faith and trust that he will be in good hands. That is, in Stanford’s hands.
I also trust his judgements to make sound decisions. I am confident that my husband and I have given him the strong foundation to be successful on his own. I can only hope and pray that this new chapter in his life will bring him fulfillment, to help him reach his goals, and guide him to find his way and place in this world. But, ultimately, my only wish is for him to be happy.
He will be back during the holidays and until then, I will terribly long for his presence! Perhaps I’ll start binge watching his favorite shows on Netflix or HBO so when he comes home, we will have more things to talk about! 😄